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In my entire life there are some experiences of losses that some of them
happened to me and some happened to people who were close to me and it was
possible to see their responses, and the time that I spent with them during
their suffering from losses was enough to realize their situation and recognize
its details.
It is interesting to compare the losses with each other as a
way to assess my learning of loss experiences.
At first I like to state my
father's responses toward his two different kind of losing. First one was his
mother's death. It happened by a car accident, so it was unexpected and sudden
and was enough to shock him. At first days he was quiet and sometimes weeping
silently, but one thing that in that time for me was interesting and I never
forget, was visiting his mother's grave every night or early morning when it was
dark I do not remember exactly how long, but it did not last long. Then after
Perhaps three or four weeks it became every Thursdays and probably continues up
to now. In our religion Thursday afternoon is a holy time and people believe
that this time is the best to pray for spirits' absolution.
Another
experience of my father's losses that I like to mention is from wartime. War
between our country and Iraq. During that time town almost was empty because it
had been attacked by air force, and continued. One time as a result of the
bombing my father's house was destroyed, when we became aware every body rushed
to the town and home, what we saw was an unforgettable scene, all doors, windows
and walls were ruined and scattered and massed inside the house. Some furniture
plus all rugs were safe, but my father touched nothing; he leaned to a wall and
was gazing in space. After a short time he said, "leave all these stuff here. I
do not need anything, leave them for people." and turned back to the village.
First days he was angry, sometimes he was silent and sometimes yelling at every
body and for everything, but the main target of his rush and his offenses was
the government. He was swearing to governors and the leader all the time. Then
he turned to sadness, but it did not last long and during an interval of war he
rebuilt his house.
My mother is different. During that time she was sad and
quiet; she was giving thanks to God that nobody was at home in the time of
bombardment.
I remember when her sister passed away of cancer, she liked
loneliness, she preferred to be alone and cry with her sadness song, but when
she lost her nineteen years old nephew she was different. Her nephew was killed
in war and she believed that it was a right way to give life, she believed he
was martyred. In that time my brother was hospitalized as a war wounded and
unconscious, these events made her sad, but she was calm because she believed
that it was not wasting the life.
In coping with grief and lost I am not
very different when I am angry I like to shout and tell yell and scream loudly,
if the people who are my addresses are quiet it can help me to become calm
gradually otherwise it make me mad. If my anger is severe and I am not able to
take it out directly, I will seek help from imagination, and discharge the
energy of anger through fantastic act.
One morning in age eleven or twelve I
found a baby cat. She was very small and still needed her mother. it made me
very sad and angry with person who put the baby cat out and made her away from
her mother. I took the baby cat home and took after her for a period. I do not
remember how long but it was enough to be attached to her. One morning when I
woke up I found the baby cat dead. It made me unexplainably sad and angry. I was
sad for baby cat and I was angry with the person whom I believed was the
murderer. I was mad because I was not able to find him or her to tell them: do
you like somebody taking your baby away from you? Why you did such a work?
In that age it was very difficult for me to endure that condition. I was
unable to do anything except acting harsh and speaking bitterly to an imaginary
person who was guilty. I wrote a letter to him about two pages in a harsh and
sadness language and told him everything I thought he or she deserved. Then it
was my job for a few days to go somewhere alone and read the letter over and
over and changed it several times. Later I became aware that my mother also had
read the letter and enjoyed it because emotionally she also was like me, angry
and sad.
Another major loss in my life is my grandmother's death, when it
happened I was ten years old. I never forget that summer afternoon that my
mother asked me to go out and buy some kind of meat that was needed for cooking
dinner. I disobeyed her command, and refused her asking, so my grand mother
accepted to do my duty. Soon after some of our neighbors reported to us that
they took my grandmother to hospital because of her injury of a car accident, it
was very dreadful to me to hear that. There was no word or sentence that could
describe my situation.
After a few days she died, and her death was a
disaster to me. It disturbed all my being. I hated myself, I felt that I was a
murderer, as a person who killed daddy's mother, my sisters' and brother's grand
mother and most important who was guilty in my grand mother's death.
It made
me deeply sad. In that time I was looking for something or some one to punish me
and make me free of my feeling of guilt or tell me that it was not my fault.
In coping with losses I have different manner and different ways for
responses to them, when I am angry I like to be with people and show my anger,
but by the feeling of guilt, embarrassment, and slight sorrow, I like to be
alone at home. My wife is the only person whom I like to speak to her in such
situations.
For understanding about my reaction toward losses and grief
through my wife's viewpoint I asked her, how did you understand me and how did
you see my responses with losing my job. She said: "in that time you were sad
and quiet, it also was clear that you were angry. You did not like to speak
except about future. I felt you were worried. You preferred to be at home alone
and busy with books. You changed to almost normal after about one or two months,
but you talked about your lost job and its goodness and its beauties over and
over and repeated one subject for many times." In the situation of sadness
reading mystical poetry, hearing sad sound and sad music, and writing letters to
some friends in other cities are the ways that can be effective and helpful to
me, but with intensive sorrow I do not like to be alone, in such conditions
loneliness has lots of pressure on me. I like to be with friends and relatives
all the time, particularly at night.
Loss is real and human life is full of
losses. Losing happens from first days to last day of life. From wearing to
leaving home for first day of school to puberty, getting married, pregnancy,
giving birth and first child, job, retirement, losing friends or spouse, and
getting old with its weakness and sickness and many others.
All these losses
will happen, if we do not understand them, it can be harmful, mentally and
physically, if we are able to realize the reality of them and know the logical
ways and the best manner of coping with each of them, it will prevent the
consecutive problems and will be useful for health and safety.
We know
losses are different and coping with them depends on each kind of loss and
depends on person who is suffering from a loss. Suffering from grief, anger,
feeling of guilt and embarrassment are different, and also in young to old, man
to woman and person to person totally are various and different, therefore we
have to realize the losses and know the manner of coping with each of them.
We know losses generate a powerful energy that is effective and harmful for
health, mentally and physically. So it is necessary to pull it out through some
ways such as crying, writing, hearing some music, yelling and even slamming and
foot stomping and finally through the most useful and powerful way, speaking. In
this manner it requires a listener to listen, their speech compassionately and
with understanding their conditions and accept their situation without
evaluation and judgement about their reactions and responses toward their
losses, because in that time they just need a good listener. For this purpose
support groups are the best model and example.
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